Dec. 6, 2016

Canada!!!

OMG is what I have to say. While in Boston in Oct 15 I met a Canadian lady Roseanna and we clicked straight away. Since my return we have message eachother several times a week, we support eachother through our appointments, through the ups and downs of this disease. We know exactly what eachother is going through and we just have an amazing bond. Anyhow Roseanna had gotten some pretty shitty news and all I wanted to do was put my arms around her and give her a hug but we had the slight issue of that big Atlantic Ocean. After several conversations as to what I could do to help, Roseanna asked that the 4 of us go visit and stay with her. I was so nervous about the idea of us all travelling as I knew she wasn't well and all of us on top of her would it be too much. Then off course how would I cope with the travelling. Would the pain be bearable? But through all the conversations and the generousity of my friend who covered our 4 flights and family who covered spending money, on Nov 20th we headed to Edmonton,Alberta, Canada. What an amazing 10 days we had. We had an amazing time as a family. I got to spend top quality time with a dear friend.I spent time with her while she received her blood transfusion, we talked about everything to do with our illness. The impact of it on our Husbands, kids, mothers, family and friends. We talked about the things that scared us, the side effects of our drugs etc. We laughed, we cried and we Joked. As a family Clive the kids and I experienced real Canadian life. We skied, skated and in general we had an amazing time. However, now I am home, exhausted and an emotional wreck. To see afriend ill with lung mets it reminds me that could be me soon. Roseanna is an amazing patient, she drains her lungs daily of fluid to help her breath. It is a frightening thought. I also left her at the airport hoping that someday she and her family could come visit Ireland but realistically knowing she won't be able. Our friendship is stronger now no doubt but my heart breaks as I know we may not meet again. This trip has thought me though, seize every opportunity. I have gained so much from my trip but it is certainly going tohave an impact on me emotionallyfora very long time but we truely have made memories for a lifetime with the kids and I sincerely hope Roseanna and her family have benefitted from the trip as much as we did. Having the support of a fellow Lifer and the bond that there is between us is invaluable. Only those going through this truely understand what it is like.