Jul. 23, 2014

Thrown into a whole new world!

Scheduled for a mastectomy tomorrow, followed by chemo I thought it couldn't get any worse. But it could, I have bone metasticies on my spine. What you ask? Yes bone mets, 7 of them in lay mans words 7 tumours on my spine yes and it's breast cancer. No point in surgery as I now have stage 4 cancer and there is no cure. 33yrs old and you can't cure me? That means I am going to die from this diesese! Yes and Yes. My husband and I are brought into a side room and given time alone to digest the news we are given. The pain in my heart is so unbearable, the sadness in my husbands eyes is terrifying. The nurse comes in and tells us to be prepared for the "Histeria" when we go home and that is exactly what is was. I am relieved that I have already told my 10 yr old that I have cancer but no to explain why I am not having surgery which I have been preparing him for the past few week. My daughter is only 3 so she is not aware of anything really.